Waiting by the Kerith Ravine

I have never thought of I am a man with little faith. I feel that I can stand firm on my ground and will not get affected by any worldly matter. Vice versa, in fact I feel that I am weak and also close to despair when matters strike me. I am not as strong as what I think. I have never face death and hence I am not afraid of death.What if someone points a gun at you, will I stand firm on my faith? I am not too sure now. Despair is a disease. Despair will erode your faith slowly. 

I pray to God that he will guide me through my path and sometimes the lesson of patience is not easy. I do not have much patience. I describe myself as a person who is in doubts, impatience and slightly hot temper. I do not like to lose control but I am not a freak. I understand a person can never control everything in his life. 

I have been praying that the house can be sold and I still have a buyer who is going to sign the legal document this morning. I am not entirely sure whether this is going to happen or not. See, I am a man of little faith. Last night, I prayed to the Lord that to grant me strength to go through this. If that is his will, please provide me the strength to anchor me and give me faith to see what is unseen. I know he has a plan and I just pray that I have enough courage to walk through that.

I am wounded by financial difficulties and I know I am very afraid of falling into such state again. I am not greedy, I am just wishing to provide the best as I can for my family.

In Philippians 4:4, Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!

In 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

These are three verses which I came across this morning. Somehow, his words grant me peace and I feel better. I am not totally out yet but I trust that my Lord will walk through the path with me. I feel that the Lord is teaching me how to be patience. Like what God ordered Elijah to hide in the Kerith Ravine. (1 Kings 17:2-4)  Kerith Ravine is desolate or separation from main area. I feel like God wants me to depend on him in Kerith Ravine, waiting for his commands. We have an evangelistic service and spirit convocation coming along this weekend. I want to prepare my heart and soul to serve him better. I must remove doubts from here so that I can better equip. O Father, help me through this so that I can serve you with no anxious. Amen.

 

Counting His Grace with Renewed Strength (Lesson on Patience)

Life has been different after I truely received Christ into my life again. To count his grace and his blessings, I have received so much from our Father. Over the past four years, he brings me out of the valley of death and lead me to his dwelling place. I have a blessed marriage, a caring wife and a beautiful daughter. God has taking care of my daily needs and he has given me plenty. In fact, it is more than what I can imagine.

Sometimes, I feel that I have not given enough to him. I am glad that I can help out in interpreting. I learn a lot and many things happen in speakers' life has constantly reminding me I shall not confound to this world. There are times when I feel weak. It may due to my personal greed or over exposure in accumulating personal gain. I do not think that I am greedy. I believe I am focusing in giving the best to my family and sometimes I slip into financial constraints.

I have acquired a few properties and focus a lot on that over the last few years. No doubts, I amass a great amount of paper gains. However, when it comes to selling the property and realizing capital gain, it proves somehow more difficult than I can imagine. I learn my lesson. One shall not sell things if one does not believe in it. It is important to focus on this Christian teaching. If that is something which you do not want, you shall not sell it to the others. I am not saying that I do not like my property. I like it but I do feel that it is not a perfect home for my family yet.

To be frank, I am running into slight financial difficulties. We have put up our home in the market since last December. Our first 'serious' viewer came by on 19 May 2013. Why did it take so long ? The market just has not been very positive as well as Malaysia was having election. Things are slightly slow. Market starts to pick up slightly. To us, we are moving to a condominium which will be our home for the next ten years or so. 

'Yet those who wait for the LORD Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary.' (Isaiah 40:31)

I named my daughter after this bible verse because I believe the Lord will renew her strength as well as guide her in her path. For what we have, that is the grace of God that we have health, wealth, able to live peacefully in this world. Hence, we shall not be greedy or focusing in worldly matter zealously. 

Why I am writing this sharing, my wife and I have been praying to God to help us to find a buyer. I believe God will take care of it and I shall not be worried about that. Also, back in March/April this year, I was really depressed because I have problems servicing my mortgages. However, My Lord is the provider. He provided me with a loan of RM 100,000 from an international bank. I received a call from the banker and glad that the water came in during drought.

While I am writing this, the potential buyer came back to us with an offer. It was below our expected price but I believe we will take it. This belongs to God and God will see what is right. So, I shall accept it without any doubts.

Hallelujah! I hope those who read my blog will give thanks to him and depend on him. He will guide us and we will not lose our way. Amen.